Recently my stomach has been trying to convince me that I DO IN FACT want to eat refined sugar EVERYDAY and that I’d be perfectly happy with going up a pant size.
This is a lie.
I know this because this overeating phase happens to me from time to time. And I know I must now stop eating crap, make a concerted effort to not eat until I’m just a little too full and to freaking stop thinking dessert is necessary (it’s not). I must also step up my working out to 4 to 6 times a week and not think the bi-weekly half assed cardio routine will cut it.
If I didn’t do this I would be overweight (my main reason for working out – let’s not pretend there’s another MAJOR reason), be completely insane due to the lack of endorphins (my second reason for working out) and have WAY too much free time.
So yeah, I talk about working out and I complain about not pigging out to everyone at opportunity I have. And NO my body isn’t super tight nor is it conventionally skinny. But what I do is still hard (by my standards) and I honestly do pity myself and feel this innate sense of jealousy at all the superhot ladiezzz around. Because of course they have it easier than me. Or DO they?
Recently, there has been this constant reinforcement in the media of the girl who doesn’t have to work at looking good. She can eat ALL that she wants and is naturally skinny. This sucks because it’s A. Mostly untrue and B. Makes you feel like there’s something very, very wrong with you – see below:
This is problematic because it creates an unrealistic reality of what women are expected to look like and yet have to show that they don’t try to look like that. So it’s a problem, and really like Gwen Stefani and Gwyneth Paltrow, people should just admit that they’re not eating and work out a lot, right?
As I was getting into a self-righteous tizzy while reading these articles I remembered a while ago a friend called out another for saying that she basically ate everything and was very slim naturally, when in fact she ate very little (also very healthily – to her credit). At that time I remember thinking that it was quite unnecessary to force someone to admit this – because maybe that’s just the way they needed to present themselves.
Personally I know that my body image and my relationship with food has always been a very difficult one. When I get into these bouts of overeating, I can face an internal battle everyday simply when having to choose to drink my morning cup of tea with OR without sugar.
I know that the answer to how we should think, present ourselves and our bodies will never be simple. Maybe its because our relationship with our bodies aren’t. To those women who truly are comfortable with what they look like and their body, and really don’t think about all this stuff that much – I salute them and am envious. To those who think about it way too much and are affected by media, I feel for you because it’s me too.
Maybe more than anything else, especially as a women we just shouldn’t be so hard on women. Especially when it comes to food and our relationship with it and how we choose to portray this part of our life to the world – if at all.
Silly, no? Coming from a feminist with a blog mainly about food?